Wise as a Serpent

wise as serpents and harmless as doves” (Matthew 10:16, KJV)

I am trying to be just that-wise as a serpent, and I'm asking the Lord for His wisdom so that I don't try to do things on my own. I've spent a lot of time praying as I'm driving and walking and cooking etc that I would treat I.G. with forgiveness and that I would walk in that (being harmless as a dove). Basically what I'm trying to say is that without being gullable and a doormat I am trying to treat him the way Jesus would and walk out/live out the forgiveness I've already given in my heart. I don't want revenge and I don't hold any hate or animosity in my heart towards him but, at the same time, I am definitely in momma tiger mode so I'm in the offensive mode when it comes to H's and my safety.

I.G. is asking for his green card so that he can get a 'real job' and send us some money to take care of his daughter. He is respecting my wishes, so far, that he stay away for a while and just prove himself to be a human being at the least. When the time comes that he is asked to visit it will be after a lot of prayer, counsel and support of family and friends and-don't worry- it won't be alone.

I was talking with my best friend the other day and mentioned that even though I don't know what the Lord is doing or is going to do, I have hope. Not in I.G. or the restoration of my marriage but in the Lord. I know that the Lord is faithful and will take care of H and me. I also know that He will use this for His glory and I hope in HIM! I realize too that if He is going to restore my marriage it will be a long and hard process and if He's not it'll still be a long and hard process but I'm encouraged. I know that HE knows what He is doing, thank goodness, and whatever it is I am growing in Him. I don't know if this was the Lord's way of bringing me to my knees and reminding me that I need Him but, it has and I do!

I have also been reading and meditating on the scriptures in Lamentations and love how I am reminded over and over that the Lord sees and will judge my oppressors and He is just and what I.G. did to us was not/is not right and the Lord has got my back. He's seen each tear and heard each cry of my heart and knows what is best for H and me. He will judge rightly and in His time. Until then Lord, I need Your wisdom for each situation and circumstance. Please tune my ear to your voice and help me to respond immediately to Your prompting.

Thanks for reading and praying for me/us. Let me know if you have anything I can be praying for you about.

Blessings!